This newsletter is not about television, except when it is.
            Welcome to Episodes by me, Emily VanDerWerff. Emily VanDerWerff is the critic at large at Vox and the former TV
        
     
    
            
    
        
    
        Is that all there is?
            Mad Men, one of my favorite TV shows ever made, begins its final stretch of episodes with a melancholy reflection
        
     
    
            
    
        
    
        Full time
            I didn't mean to go full time. I just did.
This is the opposite of almost everything else
        
     
    
            
    
        
    
        Threshold of revelation (with apologies to Tony Kushner)
            When people ask me, "When did you know you were a woman?" my answer tends to come in
        
     
    
            
    
        
    
        So who were you?
            There's been some small degree of debate on trans Twitter (which, really, why would you go there?) about
        
     
    
            
    
        
    
        Undergoing renovation
            A couple of weeks ago, I had to lay down on my bathroom floor and cry for about 15 minutes.
        
     
    
            
    
        
    
        The Voice
            Today, I called a doctor and made an appointment for a consultation on vocal feminization surgery. It's the
        
     
    
            
    
        
    
        Cardinal
            It felt a little like the bird was following me around the upper floor of my parents' home. I
        
     
    
            
    
        
    
        You maybe don't know how to do this
            Every so often, on main, I'll tweet something that sparks an energetic response from the many, many energetic
        
     
    
            
    
        
    
        Why do we build the wall
            When I was 4, I loved to play dress-up. My mom had a bunch of weird old clothes she had