Emily St. James

Episodes: It's already gone

Wanting

The idea I see shared a lot in trans discussion spaces is that wanting determines destiny in some way. Because I want badly to be a woman, I am a woman, by this line of thinking, even as I write this while cloaked in the guise of a seemingly typical

To the girl at the Hollywood/Vine Metro station in LA, out having fun today

First: I love your shoes. Perfect going out shoes. Second: I'm sorry if I stared. I didn't mean to. I know that you are probably self-conscious about that, since you don't pass. And I know that there are a lot of men who make

Testosterone

A few years ago, for a medical matter, I had to get regular testosterone shots every other week. My levels were within the normal range for a man, but at the low end of that spectrum, and everybody wanted to find a way to boost them to prepare for an

Emily

So I have the most compartmentalized brain in the history of humankind, due to a bunch of factors you almost certainly wouldn't care about, readers who are mostly (though not exclusively!) me. This is one of the reasons I spent a lot of time believing I wasn'

Dysphoria (to the tune of The Pixies' Velouria)

Hello, readers, who are mostly me. Let's talk about gender dysphoria. I spent almost my entire life not realizing I struggled with it, because a long system of lessons learned the wrong way in childhood led me to essentially disconnect the major wires between my brain and my

Stealth

In trans circles, the concept of "stealth" is used to refer to trans folks who, whether through timing or good genes, are able to so completely pass for their gender, and not the one they were assigned at birth, that they can effectively walk among you without you